the past 9 days is like a test for me. it was also the time where i learned to appreciate and realize alot of things. anyone would've said it was unlucky, but im grateful, glad that i'm alright and not suffering like many others who could've suffered far worse than me. glad that i'm able to learn, experience and take things in a positive manner. im thankful.

mom, for being with me all the time. i know you didn't sleep well because u were crying. your porridge is much more delicious and you gave me strength when im scared. you were tired, but you kept me company and make sure everything is settled. i never look forward to nighttime because i know you will leave, and i know you know because your eyes told me that you are sorry for me.




dad, your encouraging words gave me courage to face all the tests. you told me all your experiences and made me realize how lucky i am, how grateful i SHOULD be. and i really am. i remember when i was lying, heart panting and in pain.. you kept brushing my hair and touching my cheeks. i felt like i was 8 again.



joezer, you know how well you can handle with my emotions. when i was at my lowest, you were there for me. i was so scared when i thought of the bone marrow test, but you kept telling me to think positively. i was way at the losing end, but you pulled me back. from cries to laughter, frowns to smiles. i know you tried, and you succeeded.i love you.



jeniffer, i never really like you but you were with me every night. you sure know how to take care of me. i'm pretty embarassed though because you saw every part of my body! MALUUU.



kitli, you are still a little baby to me la. you came over for hours that day, but you just talk and entertain me. why didn't feed me food wan? haha. its okay baby. because you are one. when u visited me at my house, i was so weak that i couldn't talk to you. but you understood and left. you looked pretty for prom girl.



siewtheeng and kaichean, thanks for "to cheer you up" baloon and fruits which you went all the way to imbi market to get for me. i was surprised how much a baloon can do to cheer me up. i kept playing with it whenever i couldn't move around. both of you made me laugh.jokers!



kahmun and kahhor, another set of joker couple. thanks for the flowers. they are right behind me now, drying up =( it was nice chitchatting with both of you. i remember you smsed me to warn me to becareful so that i won't knock onto anything if i faint again, that's very thoughtful of you..yet funny. it was just random okay!



neighbour who lives few floors below me, thanks for helping that day. i know im heavy, without you my parents would not be capable of getting me into the car.



ambulance man, thank you for calming me down. that really helped.



nurses at gleneagles, you all are one friendly lot. you all changed my perception towards nurses. i used to think they are mean and nasty, not anymore.



tze may and mom, it was nice to have you guys there because i was so nervous before the procedure!



mr. and mrs chan, you cared so much for me. thanks for telling me your son's experience. at least it gave me an idea of what i was about to expect. both of you came right away when i was admitted again. i know both of you are very concerned, just like how you will be concerned over your children. i'm sorry i can't eat your fruits mrs chan!



wynwyn, my lil brother who is labled as "sek jou yan" by my parents all the time. i know you cared about me although u didn't dare to admit. whenever you come into my room and talk to me, i'd feel much better because you will be telling me all your stories and crappy things which i like to hear.



jerald, why you like to be so random and appear all of a sudden quietly? haha. you didn't speak much, but im surprised that you came. thanks sor lou.



shi xian, another person who gave me a surprise visit. really really happy that you came since you stay so far away. i thought you forgotten about me... =((( thanks girl, i know you cared.



all my mom's friends, thanks for visiting. especially aunty meiling who lighted up candles for me. it must've helped =). thanks for the flowers and your aunty stories, at least i didn't feel that bored.

mrs hoe aka sam director and ms.choo, thanks for visiting and the flowers too! nice stories u have there, mrs hoe.


thanks to those who cared and smsed/called me. muaaah!

dub dub dub

im quite random, so i constantly have random thoughts, which i don't really share with everyone because they'll think im crazy. but here goes..

-i have this thing called SMS-QUOTA. my brain doesn't allow me to send more than a certain amount of sms per day, so tat explains my late reply sometimes. if i send too many sms(as in 7-10) i will feel suffocated and tired. haih.

-i think i've been consuming SOOOOOOOOO and SOOOOOOOO much sugary food for the past few years and im finally sick of SUGARY food even chocolates. bad thing? yes, how am i gonna enjoy my desserts har? i actually rejected dessert twice~! i wasn't even tempted to eat the chocolate joe offered which jiajun bought.

-skinny jeans are addictive. i was disappointed when i realize topshop @ MV doesn't have my size. um, *RUNS TO KLCC!!* i tink lagi don't have. "skinny jeans are for skinny people", who cares!

-having migranes for the 1st time in my life. it sucks,it really does..i can feel like there's this techno music my brains are dancing to..throb throb.

-why some people (ie. high school kids who are having holidays SOON) like to crazy highlight their hair ? like..multiple colors or some weirdo color. very ugly lor.

very semangat picture of the L1 species.

i used to think...

some many weeks ago, college ended for me, classmates n fellow SAM-ians. i thought myclassmates were joking about each of us giving closing speeches but each of us gave one in the end. im glad everyone did. very emotional period...tears flowing down, hugs and all.

fastfwd: now im having my samFINALS.and im really taking it lightly. i admit, im just being lazy and assume that everything will go OKAY. as usual..haiyo. how? all the "what if(s)"..


and jay's latest album,,,,,, RULES. hah! he must've INSAF from last yr's crappy album.tat's why. and im a HAPPY HAPPY girl now. =))) dear mr.chou, can you please please please come to malaysia again for an autograph session? i still remember 2 yrs ago, when he came..i went for his autograph session at 1U. so, kit and i queued and queued.finally, when it was my turn, jay signed for me la of cus~~^^v but he didn't look up, so i just stand there until he looked up at me. fuh! he must be thinking "sigh..poor desperate girl..since she stand there waiting for so long, oklah! i'll look at her lah!" can't be helped.. =P


i was doing my sort of annual copying of pics into my CD and i browsed throught my old pictures. i think i changed alot leh. i think it's because of my braces. thank god for the braces! i stil remember kimhai used to say that i have this..."sai kua pao"?? i don;t really know what it means, but i noe it's something about the teeth growing outwards. im so gonna flash my teeth at him next time man. =DDDDD okay, some old pics which i dug out>>

penang-our after post spm trip

hmm, why 7-11 ah? becus that's the only few shops which were open

mlynn yum wif her creative headgears

i thought i didn know engyao till this year??

the tougue out pose =P i think i look like a retard lah.. and who says tongue out pose are cute??

another post spm trip to spore. vivo city sounds so canggih..but of course, not that canggih also la, ceh.

2 years back. when i used to be thinner. and joe used to be thinner.

3 yrs ago, pure white and innocent.ahem.

the famous JUMP..tat smashpop guy must've been jumping since he was a baby to get perfect JUMP! pictures all the time